"I think more people should pick up comic books and say, you know, maybe I don't have to be so gray all the time"

At the beginning of the month, I had started a post in response to the Wilamette Week's cover story (from 3/6/08). It featured a local who created a superhero identity for himself ( Zetaman, who stated the quote in the above title). He frequently patrols the streets of Portland with pepper spray, a Taser, and a metal baton (serving as protection for himself adn those in danger), a flashlight and a first aid kit. He frequently hands out food, hot beverages, clothing and blankets for the homeless. The article also mentioned that hundreds more real-life superheroes exist and can be found online, many on myspace. Some claim to have special or psychic powers while some just enjoy running around in a costume. The Portlander highlighted, however, inspired me. His selfless acts to better humanity (and have a little fun while doing it) serve as a example for myself (and the rest of us) to get out there in your community and help those around you. I have a strong desire to do just that, some how and in some way(s) during my lifetime. I truly meant to pontificate on this article at the beginning of the month, however I got so caught up in my situation and surroundings....
...At this point in my life, I'm at a transition...and I find myself stressed out. Just having moved to a new place all on my own (at least regarding parental assistance) and with a relatively new partner, I find myself struggling in long-forgotten loneliness, unfamiliar surroundings, and other discomforts. I have let myself react badly to these stressors lately: often getting frustrated and overwhelmed with fears and insecurities and taking it out on the one closest to me. Which is not fair, but human.
Things have cleared up a bit though: paychecks have come, and helping hands have appeared to make sure I/we do not fall face down on the cold, wet pavement of Portland. And I have enjoyed some jolly good fun and met some people and participated in some social interactions too. One of my longest friends (in fact I think the longest) just came to visit me last weekend, which was so great! I even got to meet her friend (who in turn introduced us to another friend). We got to explore more of Portland together and it was so nice to be around someone who I have such a history with.
So I must remind myself to stay positive in my mind and heart and to keep them open...to hang in there...to let go of fears and insecurities and embrace new experiences...to love myself more and more each day...to breathe...to stretch...to run, dance, swim, play, sing...to put myself in someone else's shoes...
...On my way to becoming my own real-life superhero!