Paradoxum

Am I on the verge of a breakdown?
I feel so crazy-
almost like the flip of a switch
from sad,
angry,
happy...
I struggle to feel okay
I speak of balance
are my actions reflecting this?
Stretched thin
across my life
like a tanner's hide
Teetering on the cusp of a damaging r-r-rip!
Am I experiencing "normally"?
I recognize my general dilemmas as common to others
but does everyone have such a roller coaster ride of emotions?
I hold within
then eventually vent
and yet
I need to stand up
Tall and Strong
Allow myself to fully stretch
into this phase of life
the burn could just be a life lesson
"growing pain"
it will pass right?
I feel so shaky,
u n s e t t l e d
O V E R W H E L M E D
The multitude of situations, decisions,
consequences, outcomes,
possibilities, joys, distractions,
passions, pains, challenges,
duties, guilt, selfish desires,
selfish wishes,
loneliness, longing,
ALL JUMBLED!
Whirling, swirling,
as we watch the gaseous orb burn across the sky
as the planets make their revolutions around the sun
I can feel any and all of these...
Just breathe
Take some time to breathe
Stop shutting down to the self and loved ones
Look how far I have made it through this journey
My heart still aches
with indecision
paralyzed by fear
Mind gripped in anxiety!
Relax
Release
Walk into this World
With Your Head Up High